In case you haven’t heard, Charles Manson has officially passed away. He was in and out of the hospital for unknown issues, but he finally passed. I have learned that there are a lot of sick people in the world. Manson is one of them. But there are actually people that are mourning his loss. I mean, people who are not related to him. There are people out in this world that actually look up to him. I will never understand it. If you are one of these people, can you please explain it to me?
In other news, I’m having a difficult time with focus today. I should be getting my house ready for Thursday. On the upside, I don’t have to have my house impeccably clean because only my parents will be over. I managed to get to the grocery and pick up items for tonight’s and tomorrow night’s dinner. And I also managed to forget something that I forgot to put on my list; Paper Towels. However, I should be doing SOMETHING. I can only manage to stay in one place because my head is spinning so fast I can’t make it stop and point me in one direction. To be quite honest, it sucks. I wish my husband understood. He accepts it for what it is, but he doesn’t understand. I don’t know that anyone can understand unless they have gone through or are going through it.
The lack of focus brings on anxiety. Because I am frustrated that I can’t focus, so I work myself up. Sometimes that then turns into depression. Last night I had an anxiety attack out of nowhere. I was just sitting doing some computer work and BAM! I was hit with a wave of sadness and then my stomach dropped.
So, once again, I’m trying to get the ferris wheel that is my mind to slow down and I can pick a direction. All I need is a little focus.