How it goes

This is how my mother in law rolls…. I have to be up at 5 am. That means I need to go to bed early. So, she has to stay up and watch a show until 10.

I am going to be so icky tomorrow. But hey, I’m being a gracious hostess right?

It is just so hot and gross today. I took a shower but I still feel nasty. So I am grumpy.


we still have work to do

Friday was not very fun. I came home from work and went immediately to the grocery store with hubby. When I got home, he had not done things he was supposed to prepare for his parents’ arrival properly. I realized that was my issue and to let it all go, because he did the best he could. He is not anal-retentive like me.

We leave to go to the store, and all he did the whole way there was critique my driving! Seriously? And he did it on the way home too. I told him “I’m sure glad you are the one that is driving!” He was being very cheeky and it was pissing me off. I don’t like him when he is being a dick.

I let shit go, why didn’t he?

When he tells me I’m doing things wrong, it amplifies to I’m incompetent. And I take offense. It is a deep-seated childhood trauma issue, that he knows I have. We talk about it in counseling every session.

the saga continues

apparently, me working in the mornings is throwing everyone out of whack at the center. They just hired a new girl yesterday to work in the afternoons. And then they asked the girl that has been there for 3 years if she could come in later and work a split shift. The owner asked me today if I could only work four hours, and I confirmed that yes, 4 hours.

I was going to talk to the office about it this afternoon when I got off, but she had someone in her office. So I am just going to wait until the director comes back and say look, if this is going to put a hardship on everyone, let’s just part ways. I was told there were two morning shifts. That is why I picked this place over the other place. So, maybe come monday I’ll be unemployed again.


I am really liking my job. But the director gets back this week and I dunno how she is going to feel that I have only been working mornings, and only in the toddler room, NOT in the infant room. Shit may hit the fan. Or it may not, who knows.

It is especially nice to have something to do now that the kids are back at school. Sitting at home alone is bad for me. Getting out for a few hours is really working wonders for me.

In laws will be here Friday. I asked my husband what he wanted me to get done in preparation. He told me he just wants me to relax during my downtime because I work too hard. Have I mentioned couples therapy has been amazing? But I STILL need to get stuff done. I just need some direction.


There is a lady that I work… next to, she is in another room with the infants. She doesn’t care for me, and I don’t know why. I’ve been in her room one day, on my first day, and she didn’t want me in there then either.

Today she came in our room and asked how many kids we had. 2 adults and two kids. She was out of ratio, so she needed someone to come in and help until the 9 o’clock gal came in. So the lady I was working with said “Ok, I will send her in…” And then there was a pause and then an “Oh.”

I don’t know what was said, but I intend to find out tomorrow. I don’t know if the other lady will tell me or not, but I’m going to ask.

Seriously? I’m ok to watch your kids when there is no one else to do it when you need to go to the bathroom, but if you have to share a room with me for a small amount of time, it’s not happening? So stupid. I have done nothing. And it kind of irritates me. I haven’t let it bother me much at work. I just try to avoid her, which is easy since she works in the room next to me. But when I get home, it runs over and over in my head… “Why doesn’t she like me? What did I do?”

Then I had a run in with a snippy grandma today. Asking me all kinds of questions that I couldn’t answer. I’m the new girl, sorry! I’ll ask the other ladies when they come in. Oy vey!


I’m still in a good mental space though. Even though I am very tired. I did take an hour nap this afternoon after I got my housework done.



I’m going to try really hard to not have my weekend filled with thing to do. I am still exhausted from my weekend. I’ve got a busy week and weekend ahead of me. In-Laws coming in Friday but just for the weekend. But I will have another busy weekend.

Mentally I am doing well. But with being exhausted, I gotta to make sure I rest so my mood doesn’t get wonky.  I seriously do not want to go to work today. I am soooooooooooo tired. But it is only 4 hours, and I am going to try and structure their day as much as I can to make things go faster.


My stories from the weekend

I was planning on relaxing this weekend. Doing nothing but my training.

Friday I just hung out. Saturday I went to the grocery to grab fruit for my fruit salad I was making for my mom’s get together. Then I spent the night at my BFF’s house. I had called to check in on her, as I haven’t talked to her in awhile, and she was like Come spend the night! So, I did. Her husband paid for us to get our nails done, we ran to walmart, then we came back to her house, ate dinner, did a lot of talking, and then went out to the hot tub. It was soooooooooo relaxin, minus the sounds of traffic and all of the sirens. LOL.

I don’t even know what time I went to bed last night, but I got up at 715 and then went home. Came home, had some tums (pizza from the night before gave me  horrible heartburn), made some coffee, and took a two hour nap on the loveseat in the livingroom befor I had to get ready to go to my moms.

Went to my mom’s, stayed about 2 hours, came home, had some more coffee. I am soooooooooooooo tired, I would like to take a nap, but then I will have a hardtime going to sleep. So, coffee it is!

I’m going to work on another training module tonight, take a bath, and go. to . bed. I don’t want tomorrow to be monday, I’m not ready for work.