I have a lot of dislikes, but not many fears. One fear that is the fear of all my fears is DRIVING IN THE HIGHWAY/FREEWAY.
I hate being the driver, I hate being the passenger. Whenever I have to travel on the highway, I have to take at ativan; otherwise I am a rocking, blubbering, anxiety filled hot mess. I don’t know where this fear stemmed from, because *knock on wood* I have never been in an accident on the freeway. But I see SO MANY STUPID DRIVERS out there, that it causes me great fear!
This also causes some problems. If I do find the courage to drive (which is VERY rare), I and white knuckles and clenched jaw the whole entire time. If I don’t drive, I have to find someone else to drive for me. It is usually my husband or my best friend.
I don’t know how to break myself of this irrational fear. But with my dad, and my parents living an hour away from me, I need to find the strength to do it.
It is so fucking scary though!
Can anyone relate?
P.S. here is some irony for you… I grew up and learned to drive in California. I have driven on the 405! Maybe I am just out of practice? Maybe people in Ohio are just horrible drivers?