We have had some unseasonably pleasant weather the past few days. It has been great, as I haven’t been overheated and sweating like a whore in church. However, the past two days I have had to take my muscle relaxers because I have been in so much pain. And the kicker, I can’t find my posture bra, which helps to a certain extent.
Fibromyalgia is a chronic pain condition. But I don’t like to say that I have chronic pain. To me, chronic pain is constant. And mine seems to be only affected by the weather or by stress/activity. I’m sure this will all change once I start working. Thankfully it will only be for a couple of hours a day. And I’m playing it by ear. If I am in constant pain, and the meds don’t cut it, I will have to quit. But I will cross that bridge when I get to it.
The chronic pain also messes with my moods. It makes me feel drained, it makes me irritable, which can trigger the bipolar cycle.
I don’t know if the pain meds I take daily are supposed to “erase” the pain, for lack of a better term, or just make it manageable. I guess when I go back in to see my GP I should ask.
So for today, I’m tired and in pain. The cards are stacked against me. I will never be “normal”. I’ve always got some obstacle to hurdle. But, I guess everyone does in their own way.