I’m starting to feel a little bit more with it, motivationally speaking. But I discovered something today that I was finally able to put my finger on. I can’t focus. I don’t have rapid thoughts, but I am unable to grab the thoughts that are floating around in my head. It is like trying to catch a cloud with a butterfly net. Everything just kinda escapes through the netting.
For instance, today I am up and feeling able to function. However, I am unable to complete simple tasks, let alone get started on them, because I can’t focus on what I need to be doing. Does that make any sense? I don’t feel like I’m explaining it well. I was able to get the dishes done, that is a normal routinely thing, which is why I feel like I was able to get it done. I was able to call the church today and let them know that S wants to be an altar server. I did manage to get the graduation invitation paperwork filled out this morning. So, three things checked off my to-do list.
But in between all that stuff, I have found myself pacing around the house, moving from room to room, knowing that I have things I want to get done, but I am just not functionally able to stop myself and commit to doing something.
Tonight I am going to make a physical to-do list, something I can physically look at, and physically mark off. Hopefully that will make things easier for me to function at 100% efficacy.