Today I’m struggling with some of my thoughts. It is like my mind is wanting to head in the direction of mania. I am looking for adventure, I’m looking to take risks. I know these thoughts in my head are stupid and wrong, but I can’t help thinking them and having the urge to act on them.
I’m puzzled because I’m not manic. It is all just thoughts right now. And I think they are just thoughts right now because I’m not out in public or surrounded by friends or other people. I’ve never felt this before, and I’m not sure how I feel about it.
Should I be happy/proud because at this point in time I am not acting on my thoughts? Is this a sign of things to come? I know I am probably over thinking, but I’m afraid I’m going to act on my thoughts.