Maybe I’m over thinking this, and feel free to tell me if I am. But I’m wondering if I have an attachment issue with my youngest. She has been gone for almost 3 hours and I already miss her terribly. I’ve not felt like this with any of my other kids. If the opportunity arose where they were gone for a couple days, WOOOHOOO! outta my hair! But not with Sara. I wonder if it is because we are so close. For now anyway. I know it will all change once she hits her teens, which will be here before I know it.
She tells me everyday that I am the greatest mom in the world. She is always telling me how lucky she is to have a mom like me. She still cuddles with me and wants to sit by me and will even be seen out in public with me. I know it will all end, that is why I am soaking everything up now. Each gesture, I absorb it like a dry sponge. She still needs me. And WANTS me.
I’m going to be out of my mind these next two days. I hope I don’t dip into a depression. I have to find things for me to do to keep my mind off of her being gone.
*picture is of Sara and I from vacation last year.