My root canal today went well. I had such an infection that it caused my tooth to become lose, so they had to put extra composit on my tooth to anchor it. Today’s visit was $256 and some change. The first thing that popped into my mind when they told the the total was “Gee, I’m glad the in-laws bought our groceries on Friday!” As what I shelled out today was about a weeks worth of groceries for us. I have to go back in August to get my crown, and it is going to cost more than the root canal, I just don’t know HOW MUCH MORE…. And then of course was my rx’s that I needed to get filled; more antibiotics and more pain pills. And as fate would have it, JUST NOW I got a call about my psych meds, and they needed a payment in order to mail them… Total due was $160, I paid half — which I will probably get gruff from my husband about that. But I NEED the psych meds, especially since we are going on vacations next week.
So, MONEY is my stressor. I feel like I am a big, huge, insurmountable debt walking around. So guess what kicks in now?
Then guess what?
This is my life, on repeat. Things would be so much better for my family if I just didn’t exist. My husband wouldn’t be a walking-talking ulcer of a man, that is for sure. He probably wouldn’t drink nearly as much too.
I just don’t know what to do. It would be so helpful if I could get social security! But I don’t qualify, which is bullshit. The part that pisses me off the most is that I don’t have enough work credits… I’ve worked since I was 16! Those work credits go away apparently.
So, the only thing I can do right now is just deal and try not to have a nervous breakdown because I cost my husband so much money.