In order to literally keep myself sane, I have to keep busy. In keeping busy, I end up in pain. I can’t win. My life will never be “normal”, and I have to learn how to accept that. I have on some level, my problem is it just really bums me out when I carry on with a “normal” day, and it is just too painful.
All I did today was the following:
- make my bed
- 3 loads of laundry
- changed the cat litter
My back in ON FIRE! It hurts so bad it burns. There has to be SOMEWAY to avoid this! I am planning on going bowling soon, and I know it is going to cause all kinds of pain problems — but I am trying to maintain a “normal” life – so I push myself. I thought I knew how to live with fibromyalgia, but I guess I don’t. I practice self care when it comes to the fibromyalgia; I take care not to overdo it. If I’m feeling tired, I rest. But I REFUSE to not have a life!
I only did 4 things today! I should not be in this much pain for doing just 4 normal daily activities.
I see my doc next month and we WILL have a discussion about this. I can NOT live my life like this anymore.