It’s a new day. I must say I’m feeling a lot better than I was yesterday morning. Yesterday was such a bummer. I’m glad that I am not dealing with that this morning. Hopefully it is gone for good and isn’t going to creep back in at some point today.
I tried something new last night. I tried sleeping with the tv off and listened to a podcast to go to sleep instead. My reasoning is to be considerate of my husband. He wants to quit drinking (YAY!) but his excuse for drinking is that he can’t sleep if he doesn’t have a drink, and the blue light that the tv emits is bad for him. He has switched his kindle to blue light off for this reason, so I’m sacrificing my ability to sleep for him. Well, it was horrible. The kindle shuts off when the podcast is over, so there is not continual noise. I woke up a few times last night and had problems getting back to sleep. And I had finally started sleeping the night through again! I’m going to try again tonight. If it will help my husband to stop drinking then I’m all for it. However, if not having the tv on debilitates my sleep, I am going to have to go back to sleep with the tv on. I need continuous noise, otherwise, I automatically focus on the other noises (or lack of noise) that I hear in the night. It is just what my mind does. I don’t know why this is. Is it the mom in me? Is it the ADHD? I don’t know. Other than needing a new brain, I have no answers so I can’t find a way to fix it permanently.
I have a dentist appointment this morning for a cleaning and a gum examination. I think I am going to swing by the store afterwards. This is all contingent upon if my car starts. It is awfully cold this morning and there are flurries out. And we all know that my car hates the cold. My Saturn Aura is a great car! But definitely not made for the winter.
Oh! Friday I called the clinic because I needed my PA taken care of for my sleeping pills. I have less than a week left if I double up on them like I am supposed to be doing. I got a notice from the pharmacy this morning that they have still not heard from the clinic and they are only holding my Rx for 5 days and if they don’t hear anything they are going to not fill it. I am hoping they get to this soon, because me without sleeping pills is going to make me a hot mess and I’m going to go one of two ways – depressed or manic. I’m trying not to panic. But I paid my pharmacy bill yesterday just to make sure I can get them ASAP. Keep your fingers crossed for me.